Oh do count the ways
This morning has been unusually uneventful. I woke up, showered in less then 10mins, dressed, and off to work I was. Work itself has been a perfect mind numbing bore. I have yet to be cursed at by some tiny voiced elderly person. Due to the lack of productiveness here at the office I decided to work on pulling suitable names out of my head for my dear friend who is in the process of starting up her own business of event planing paired with photography. While on this great search for possible candidates for this future Name I decided to go forth on a quest of inspiration. Ultimately leading to reading blogs and eventually going back through the history of my own postings.
As I went through old thoughts, memories, and the randomness of it all. I found myself missing the person who wrote those words. Some how between there and here I let circumstances get the best of me, over throw my personality, conquer my existence, and simply drown me in a boiling pit of anger, hate, judgment, rebellion, grief, and depression.
I don't want that to become my life more than it already has. I need to learn to overlook the bad moments, see the clear picture. I need to learn to let things go, things are not in my control. I need to learn to stay silent when it counts the most, that my opinion is not always needed. And I need to learn to stand up in my leadership role that God has placed at my feet. Starting today I will play a more active role in staying above the boiling pot containing those horrible emotions. I will. I will.

inconvenience

RANT WARNING

UGH the next 2 weeks are already boning up to be HORRIFIC. [period] there is no if(s), and(s), or but(s) about it [period]

I once again do not have my own vehicle [period] the vehicle that I am paying for, the vehicle I pay insurance to drive, the vehicle that I put gas in, the vehicle I constantly clean out, the vehicle that is MINE [!!]

ONce again they've done it. inconvenienced the hell outta people. and its always these same people. they just do whatever the hell they want to with no thought to how it will affect those around them. and for the next two weeks they have managed to commandeer my families life into extra chaos. (I say extra because we pretty much live our daily lives in some type of chaos.) these people decided that they need a two week honey moon. TWO WEEKS!! what the hell can two people possibly do for two weeks.

There can only be so much sex had before somebody gets hurt.

side note: Yes, Yes I do understand it is a honey moon and it is much needed time for a newly wed couple. however there have been bridges burnt by the mentioned people then they expect you to go out of your way to do good by them when they walk all over you. [well not all over me; I refuse to let it be]

during these two weeks my mother was asked and agreed to opening our church coffee shop every morning promptly to early in the am. to do so she has to have transportation.

One guess as to owns said transportation!?

ME!

this would't be all that bad if the fact wasn't that my mom won't be receiving the kind of gratitude deserved from these two people and that I have left my work bag in "MY" car this morning. On top of this I was unable to have breakfast and I have no money to get anything from the vending machine because my cash is in my car and I have no lunch. [sigh.........] Oh and I have to deal without my car for the period of two whole stink'n weeks.

At this very moment in the universe these two people are the very least liked humans on the earth by Yours Truly. I do have a sneaky suspicion that they wont move far beyond that in the near or distant future.





"I'm Lov'N it....."
Oh wait wrong joint lol

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#43 completed

Hola Friends,
i must say it has been a while with no good excuse; i do apologize. However in that while i did complete one number of my 101 list!!
YaY
well 1/2 of a number do to recently learned extremely important information.
 i GAVE PLASMA. yes sir I did. On thursday May 12 i decided that it was time to give blood. i googled donating blood in my local town, called up the donation center for some information, and ended up with an appointment. it was quit simple. me mom even decided to tag along to donate her blood too.
  OH and FYI you cant donate whole blood while donating plasma. now that you know that, my mother and i actually donated plasma. that's why i say only 1/2 of this listed number was completed. i'm ok with that. the way i figure; since we're not allowed to donate both whole blood and plasma because of the "rules" it was allowed to be checked off anyways. 
as for my experience i would say that it was an overall 7 on the 1-10scale. reason being that they want you to eat a 1/2hr before coming so that you don't get sick while on the table. except we didn't actually get on the donating table until 3/12hrs later (for me) and 4hrs later (for me mother).

(all because of necessary testing they have to do before letting you donate)

by then neither of us had much by the way of food in our stomachs. both of us ended up not feeling so hot. i actually dried heaved for approximately 10minutes. it OOber SUCKed!! 
since then we both of gone back twice each time being an improvement over the first. we make sure to drink loads of H2O and eat before then again after. i recommend donating plasma to anyone who can. no matter the bad experience you or i may have somebody is alive because of it. i have listed the info for the center i attend below in case you would like to get involved (you are compensated for your time w/$$). and make sure to put down that i (Sydnee Anne Herker) sent you ;)


Biomat USA Orem Plasma Donation Center
349 East University Parkway
Orem, UT 84058-7639
(801) 235-9800   
(i did get a little lost the first time, just call they can help you find where they are)

...

hello again,
its been awhile. i know i promised pictures except i cant figure out how to pull the photos off my phone to post them here :( no worries i'll keep trying, someday i will succeed!! haha ha. in other updates 1&1/2days until the wedding that will change the course of the universe itself [all sarcasm intended] obviously i'm not super stoked about the up coming nuptials. moving on i'm trying to move out again. however the two opinions i had are now unavailable. sigh....with a dash of UGH!!
nothing seems to be working out and nobody really wants to listen to my list of ramblings displaying my opinions and little girl temper tantrums.
so i'm signing off, saying good night.
i hope you have an awesome fill day tomorrow!!

Update

Just a little note:

I'm home safe and sound. 

The memorial service went great. 

I was sick the whole time, but am beginning to feel better. 

I'll post pictures later. 

And I'm going on a two day camping trip this weekend :)

YaY!! 

right now i totally dont feel like blogging. today has gone to hell and back again. i'm ready to fight anyone who wants to stand in my way and there is a few names i would like to kick their a$$ for their stupidity. UGh! i'm just informing you that i'm going back to Idaho for my Grandfather's memorial service. i'll be gone wednesday through sunday. dont expect any post while i'm gone. i'll get back to you all when i get back. hopefully i'll feel better or at least have it out with these stupid a$$ people. 

2truths&1lie

*my favorite food is mac&cheese mixed with hot dogs
*i hate wearing shoes
*i am a movie pro

which is the lie? do you know me well enough to tell which is which?







LIE= i hate wearing shoes
In all reality I super love shoes. Sandals, Tinnies, Boots, Flip-Flops, Pumps, Flats, any shoe and all shoes (:

courtesy smile

Have you seen it?
                           There!!
                                       There it goes!!
                                                              Did ya catch it?
                                                                                      No? Oh... I saw it.
The Courtesy Smile.
Oh its horrible that smile
its the smile of strangers who walk pass you and just to be "NICE" the flash you this fake grin. like it'll make your day better or somethin. in all honest it sets me on edge. i begin to wonder why their smiling at me? its not like your set of teeth are shouting hello at me or making me feel any less awkward that you've noticed that i glanced in your direction.
if your lucky you might find someone who gives the real deal. an actual smile that shows the joy of the owners life. the joy they have to just see you walking by or sitting there giving them a glance.
i have committed the crime of walk-by-courtesy smiles. if your like me and on the giving end of this smile. you may experience the same effects that i do. whenever i flash someone the courtesy grin i always immediately feel stupid afterwards. plus the odd look or half assed smile that i may or may not receive back makes the whole thing worst somehow.
so if your going to smile at some one make sure that its a real one. a honest to God solid smile that says "Hi, I'm glad your alive and passing me now!!" oh and be sure to brush your teeth. any smile housing dirty teeth is always an unwanted one.

Cheers!

lost&found

We found R2D2 at the Mercy House Coffee Shop. 

He was lying on the ground, cold, and all along. 

With no home to call his own. 

Now he lives on my dash in my Car :)