Happy Tuesday July 24Th {Utah's Independence Day}

The jest of this so called Holiday is to commemorate the traipsing of Brigham Young into Salt Lake Valley. Its HUGe with the LDS {Latter Day Saints}. As for me its an opportunity for a good time! Have a safe EXCITING Pioneer Day

Hey there little Blogger Bloggerton!! Its been ages once again; my dearest apologies. I have a great many tales to tell you of. Oh yes! Yes I do. The first and for most extravagant change that  has occurred since the last time we spoke has been my relocation. Not including my parental units. I have struck out on my own. I have spread my wings. Flying solo. Being accountable to no one.
OooH and is it glorious!!
I relish being a female out on my own. To set the scene of my new abode: I am living in the poe-dunk town locally titled Santaquin, Ut {its really not that bad}. My roommates consists of two strapping young men. Haha seriously I living with my buddies Robert and Quinn. In all reality I'm mostly just boarding with Robert since Quinn has taken to the adventure of becoming a Truck driver hence he is never home to count as a whole person in the first place. Our "Bach Pad" also known as 'The House of Creature' {for reasons to vast to begin explaining} is blank to say the least. We have an obscene amount of seating for our wee living room with not an ounce of homeyness insight. Our dinning room seating is an even more dastardly concoction. The kitchen is appeasing. I have found that I actually like cooking probably because I have to now {giggle}! The bathrooms I'm not going to mention since I live with two men; you can only imagine. We're working on that issue.  My room on the other hand screams SYDNEE!! Everything about it states this is a room of one who is an extremely amazing person. I heart my room. 
I heart my whole life. I am beyond blessed. God has taken my from a place of chaos and triple dipped me in peace, love, and growth. On top of all this good stuff He has also placed another in my own little world of Syd who has become my closest friend. More on Him later....
Ta Ta for Now!

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Hey there STOCKER!!

Yea, Stocker cause if you be read'n this when nobody else does you've got to be a bonified creeper. lol.

 I am soooo just kidding or in short hand JK haha!!

To much? Yeah I thought so....Oh well

Anywhooos, I am a super duper, totally drenched, double dipped, coated, saturatedly BLESSED person! Oh yes I am

Wanna know why? NO?! I'm gonna tell you anyways cause this is my space {no pun intend, but totally awesome that it happened so naturally}

I gots another lens for my sick camera and a way spectacular laptop to do thee photo editing on.

Oh YEA! This is where I do my not so cute boot-tay dance of pure happiness.
Oooh Oooh and and I'm going to start up a photo blog here some day soon. I'll let you know when that acutally takes place ;]

all RIGHT listen Up,
here we go.....
I am done with this attitude. I'm going to jump in the shower wash off all the negativity that I have allowed to build up from situations with other people. I'm gonna paint my toes a SPank'n bright color, get at least 7 hours of sleep, and tomorrow morning at 3:45am I am leave'n this funk behind me. I am gonna do what I want; where I want; with whom I want. I've decided that I'm not going to care about anything anymore. Well I'm as sure as HeLL gonna try.
And that is that. 

get'n back

does anyone else have a bipolar life?
cause i totally feel like my is.
earlier this year i was on a smooth road of contentment and finding out who i was. i read inspiring books, watched deep movies, made a whole list of things to be done, found a relationship, was reaching for opportunities for photographs, was honest to God wanting to get deeper  in love with my Creator. then a couple months ago i face planted into a wall. i can't say with solid conviction what the wall is, but it has me stuck. i can't walk around it, i can't climb it, i can't dig under it. my nose is pressed firmly against the cold stone like i'm a mischievous kid who needs a time out. as far as i know i'm not deserving of a time out.
i want all this to change back to the "high". i want to be back to the happy. i want this stupid situation with my friend to be over. i want to have a passion to draw closer to God. i want to wake up and can't wait to find some adventure to photograph. i want to find the true someone ment for me. i don't want to be angry or depressed or in stuck looking at this wall
how do i change back?
how do i keep it from happening again?
what do i do?

week in review

well to say the least Monday through Sunday wasn't the grandest in the history of Syd. Life once again has thrown me into chaos. I ended one relationship only to feel like another is shoved to the side. I've lived this whole week in a state of feeling lost. On top of that I've realized I lost my passion. I had always wanted to be one thing and one thing only. Then one day I woke up deciding that it wasn't what I wanted to do with my life. Now I feel like I have no direction. Maybe I need a change of scenery? A change of pace? Take a few risks to find what I'm looking for?

Where should I go? Back to Boise? Salt Lake City? I have friends in Las Vegas? I love San Francisco? 

How am I suppose to do this?

101 update

Ello There,

I have..... a .....surprise for you.

 Well it was more of a surprise for/to me. Anywho, I was pondering topics to plug into this obis we call a blog when I decided to take a stroll over to my infinite yet sadly laking 101list. To confess; if you haven't peeked at it lately either it is still not completely filled with inspirational things to do. So its has become more of a "Things I hOpe todo Someday that May or May not add up to a Splotchy 101List". Moving along...... I was surprisingly delighted to discover that I had inadvertently accomplished a few Splotchy Items!! Yay me for not paying attention :]

So here's a list of the Ones I dominated with  out much planning involved accompanied by bursts of explanations.

{Tattooed Forearm}--Lets see I had been sitt'n at work when I had this over whelming urge to get another tattoo. Now back up a wee bit I knew I wanted one for several months just couldn't figure out what I wanted to permanently place on my body. Until that moment. I debated skipping out alittle long on our fund raising yard sale for road tripping to San Francisco but debated that I would be in more trouble than not. Skipping alot of dialog I asked a few friends to accompany me to our local parlor (to make sure I didn't chicken out or second guess myself- lol) and Waa La I know bear the gorgeous scripting that reads "Breath Love". Reason for statement is that we all know how hot headed I can get and how harsh my words/actions can be. This little ink is a reminder to slow down, breath before acting and to attempt  to deal with situations out of love.
{Re pierce my Nose}--Done same day as my Tattoo. The Parents of the Owner of the parlor I attended are close friends of my Parents. So He gave me a good deal to get it done the same day ;]
{Attend another Church}--Actually I attend two!! Both with my Evangelist Friend Anthony who travels from church to church during the summer. Of course both Churches were Hispanic and I didn't understand one word at all. Besides the cultural difference I had fun and even went back to one of then by myself. (No worries I'll be staying at my church for a while)
{Find a New Friend}--I am super proud of myself for this one.....even if she is the one who made it happen!! I met my new friend at one of Our Young Adults/Youth events. I ended up praying for her and having a small chat about nonsense in general. I super suck at this point cause I didn't make any effort to friend her on my own. She just kept coming to church stuff with a mutual friend and eventually I fell head over heels for her quirkiness. I know we're real friends cause shes in my phone and we're FACEBOOK friends (she even comments on my posts; that's a true friend)
{Brazilian Wax}--No matter how awkward we all find this, THE answer is YES I really did it and we will leave it as that said.
{Authentic Italian Food}--Thank God of San Francisco. I know I know it wasn't Italian food in Italy, but in my defence I probably would have an orgasm then died from the pure deliciousness that real honest to God Italy made Italian Food would have mixed into it. Either way our Waiter was crazy and the food was close to Heavenly......Oh!! I had Alfredo plus noodles and on another day I had a monster slice of Pepperoni Pizza, YUMmmmmm
{"Me" Playlist}--I started one then scrapped it for reasons unknown even to my inner being. However I have a kick'n playlist on my phone that has a tune for every mood, situation, and person. Well almost I'm constantly add songs all the time. I love it!!
{Camera}--I finally GOT ONE :] Oh and ain't she a Beaut (sighs contently) she is a Canon: Rebel 3Ti. I use her often and have saved many butts of those who where supposed to be prepared. My new dreams of expanding my photo addiction is a bigger lens and a tripod. Someday I will be a hot photographer.......Someday.

{10side notes according to Sydnee}

1] Don't say you "love" somebody unless your willing to do everything in your power to keep them, that includes taking a look at yourself and adjusting what needs to be fixed.

2]Understand each others' culture. This doesn't mean say'n you "GET" where the other person comes from then continue pushing your history's expectations down their throat. It means backing off and allowing things to slide and take care of themselves. 

3]If you can't at least try to make nice with each others' friends then please move along. An attempt is better than nothings and if you can't even do that then your not worth the effort. 

4]We are who we are. Don't tell people they need to change!! If something bugs and you feel the over whelming conviction to bring it attention then politely bring it up to said person, but then drop it. If you can't deal with whatever it is that is scratching your nerves then duck out sooner rather than later. Plus technically its up to God to change us not each other. 

5]Don't push!! Rushing somebody into things is a NO Bueno, even sharing your dream plans of spending your lives together with in the first week or two is a bit to much. Play it slow the other person will appreciated it, guaranteed. 

6]Honesty is the best policy. Even if you think it would be better to wait until a later date to spill kept beans. If somebody knows your secret its most likely that the person your trying to keep it from will find out anyways. Beat all other sources to the punch my friends, it hurts less. 

7]Take the effort to create a real date. Chill'n at ones house with their family is sweet, but the effort it takes to plan a small occasion speaks volumes.

8]Fakes not welcomed here(even if it looks fake). That goes for anything and everything; personalities, jewelry, words, and the list goes on.

9]Keep to your word. If you say something (even a whisper of a something) then do it. There is nothing worst then expecting one thing because that is what you where told then something completely different bombs your expectations or even better it never happens. Let your Yes be Yes and you No be No.

10]...

Stop me on the corner

I swear you hit me like a vision

I wasn't expecting

But who am I to tell fate where it's supposed to go with it?

--Colbie Caillat

[Brighter than the Sun]

Happy 100th Birthday, Lucy!



Labels...

what i am...

• Mouth piece for Nations
• Movie Fanatic
• creative rebellious nature
• armature snapshot photographer
• food enthusiast
• avid shoe wearer
• collector of quotes
• wish to be writer
• big city girl trapped in smallness
• Gypsy life style
• continuous laughter of all things amusing
• emotional sleeves wearer
• literature absorber
• a closed book to most readers
• attempted artist
• slice of logic mixed with reality
• love discover-er 
• masked warrior of justice 
• secret spotlight lover
• body decorator
• learner of wall balancing

what i do...

• I become overly passionate about everything. Even the littlest thing because Passion is what God poured out extra of when making me. 
• I engrave myself on people; I am unforgettable. 
• I seek adrenalin rushes and cast down nervousness.
• I praise God with all that I am for all that I am, all that He has done, and for lying down His own life so that I may walk the path least traveled.    

I'm in LOV with a little "E"

I don't generally go for Latino Men,

but Diego Luna makes me smile everytime I look at him :)

Its been a while loves!
                                  How you all be doin?
                                                                   Me?
Oh well
             I've been really super duper good good good.
I've met somebody ;) Hes pretty ligate, if I do say so myself. We met over the weekend during a church event titled "Utah4Jesus" and have hung out until the wee hours of every morning since. I'm not giving out a whole lot of details because we both leave for different trips this up and coming Tuesday. I don't want my hopes in the sky let alone yours too, lol. He says he wants to hook up once both of us are back in town. Soooooo if that happens then maybe I'll give a little to the details department. Until then stay lovable, stay open, and most of all stay in the arms of somebody who matters!
                                                                        Ta Ta for now Loves.



Love the50s look, which I could pull it off!

*Photo Credit*

"The world aint all sunshines and rainbows, its a very rough mean place and no-matter how tough you think you are, it will always bring you to your knee's and keep you there, permantly if you let it. You or nobody aint never gunna hit as hard as life. But It aint about hard you hit, its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving foward, how much you can take and keep moving forward. If you know what your worth go out and get what your worth but you've got to be willing to take the hit."

found this on a fb from somebody whos a friend of a friend. I kinda fell in love with it!

My Cowoker shared this with me for no apparent reason

 so I thought I would pass along the charity.

Its a poem by God knows who

and its slightly distrubing FYI.

Don't you ever laugh as a hearse goes by,

for you may be the next to die.

They wrap you up in a big white sheet,

And cover you up from your head down to your feet.

They put you in a big black box,

And cover you up with dirt and rocks.

All goes well for about a week,

And then your coffin begins to leak.

The worms crawl in, the worms crawl out,

The worms play pinochle* on your snout.

They eat your eyes, they eat your nose,

They eat the jelly between your toes.

A big green worm with rolling eyes,

Crawls in your stomach and out your eyes.

Your stomach turns a slimy green,

And pus pours out like whipping cream.

You spread it out on a slice of bread,

And that's what you eat when you are dead.

nOtes

[{I believe In}]

Everyone has some kind Sparkle
One True Godly Love with Another Person

Happy Endings

Smiles say a thousand words

Faith is need

Be Honest even when it Hurts

Find One's true self

Speaking the way you Eat

There is beauty in doing Nothing

A Balance of Good&Beauty

[{I do not Believe in}]

Being Scared

Regret

Only one Friend

Living just to Die

Holding Back
Looking down when Walking

Reminds me of one of my dear Friends, John

I feel this way about some people...

Fisher of Men