Oh do count the ways
This morning has been unusually uneventful. I woke up, showered in less then 10mins, dressed, and off to work I was. Work itself has been a perfect mind numbing bore. I have yet to be cursed at by some tiny voiced elderly person. Due to the lack of productiveness here at the office I decided to work on pulling suitable names out of my head for my dear friend who is in the process of starting up her own business of event planing paired with photography. While on this great search for possible candidates for this future Name I decided to go forth on a quest of inspiration. Ultimately leading to reading blogs and eventually going back through the history of my own postings.
As I went through old thoughts, memories, and the randomness of it all. I found myself missing the person who wrote those words. Some how between there and here I let circumstances get the best of me, over throw my personality, conquer my existence, and simply drown me in a boiling pit of anger, hate, judgment, rebellion, grief, and depression.
I don't want that to become my life more than it already has. I need to learn to overlook the bad moments, see the clear picture. I need to learn to let things go, things are not in my control. I need to learn to stay silent when it counts the most, that my opinion is not always needed. And I need to learn to stand up in my leadership role that God has placed at my feet. Starting today I will play a more active role in staying above the boiling pot containing those horrible emotions. I will. I will.